finding joy

It has been a rough week, as most of you have seen.

Although the weekends are here, my spirits haven't been lifted... The Love of My Life has been quite ill, and he's suspected of having chicken pox [he was in direct contact with a colleague who was later found to have it]. He's displaying most of the symptoms but I'm having my doubts that it IS really chicken pox because the symptoms will usually appear only 10-21 days after contact with an infected person. It was only two days ago that he talked to his colleague.

Anyways, even if it is chicken pox, I'm not worried because I've had it before so my body is now immune. I'm just worried about him. We need to find out the cause for this sudden bout of illness.

When I left the LOML last night, he had just taken Panadol and was about to sleep. I left instructions to call me if he needs to go to the doctor in the middle of the night or this morning, but he hasn't. I don't want to disturb his rest by calling incessantly. My darling should still be sleeping... Hopefully, he'll wake up feeling much better.

Until he calls me, it's back to more marking. More lesson planning.

On another note, I was driving the car last night while on my way to buy dinner and medicine for Gordie darl. When Daniel Powter's Bad Day came blasting through the speakers, I found myself singing along loudly. The lyrics couldn't seem more apt, especially one sentence after the bridge -

"So where is the passion when you need it the most..."

Where is my passion for teaching when I need it the most? Sigh. I'm still trying to find it...


Singing while driving? THAT'S therapeutic.

Where is the moment we needed the most 
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost 
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey 
They tell me your passion's gone away 
And I don't need no carryin' on 

You stand in the line just to hit a new low 
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go 
You tell me your life's been way off line 
You're falling to pieces everytime 
And I don't need no carryin' on 

Cause you had a bad day 
You're taking one down 
You sing a sad song just to turn it around 
You say you don't know 
You tell me don't lie 
You work at a smile and you go for a ride 
You had a bad day 
The camera don't lie 
You're coming back down and you really don't mind 
You had a bad day 
You had a bad day 

Well you need a blue sky holiday 
The point is they laugh at what you say 
And I don't need no carryin' on 

You had a bad day 
You're taking one down 
You sing a sad song just to turn it around 
You say you don't know 
You tell me don't lie 
You work at a smile and you go for a ride 
You had a bad day 
The camera don't lie 
You're coming back down and you really don't mind 
You had a bad day 

Sometimes the system goes on the blink 
And the whole thing turns out wrong 
You might not make it back and you know 
That you could be well oh that strong 
And I'm not wrong 

So where is the passion when you need it the most 
Oh you and I 
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost 

Cause you had a bad day 
You're taking one down 
You sing a sad song just to turn it around 
You say you don't know 
You tell me don't lie 
You work at a smile and you go for a ride 
You had a bad day 
You've seen what you like 
And how does it feel for one more time 
You had a bad day 
You had a bad day